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The Last Day of My Twenties

Last year in September I wrote a post called The Last Year of My Twenties. I had wanted to match it up with one about the last month, or the last week. Now today is the last day of my Twenties. I won’t make this very long. But I feel in my heart I want to let you know a little bit about my feelings on the eve of my thirtieth birthday.

Sopot, PolandI’ve never quite dreaded the 30 the way other people (women, particularly, I may add) do. I don’t mind growing older. I am grateful for the experience I’ve gained. The point when numbers suddenly seem to play a role is always reached when I ask myself what I had wanted to have achieved by this time when I was younger. Did I think I’d be done with my PhD? Yes. Did I think I’d have kids? I sure hoped so. Be married? Well, certainly!

None of these things have happened for me. So far. But, and thank God for that, I am relaxed enough to know that just because they haven’t come to me yet, it doesn’t mean they never will. And would I be ready for marriage and children? Would I be ready to decide what to do with my life work-wise, something I will have to face once I have my PhD? I don’t know, I really don’t. But that’s okay. I don’t have to be ready yet. I know I will be ready in due time. I trust myself that way.

In Gdansk, PolandI knew this last year, but I am ever more sure of it today: My Twenties have been a good decade. And taking stock now, I really can’t complain. I am happy. I have lived, loved, worked and travelled, learned, tried, failed and succeeded. There is much more to come and everything that’s happened has prepared me for it.

My Thirties will hold surprises and challenges for me. I still hope, like I wrote on the afore-mentioned post last year, that they will calm me down somewhat. But I can hope and think as much as I want. Life will have it its own way no matter what. The important thing is this: I am excited about the future. Very, very excited. And what more could one ask for.

Berlin, Germany

9 Kommentare

  1. Happy birthday Mariella! Lovely post, lovely outlook. 🙂

  2. I know I promised to write about my twenties and I started various times. The thing is, it was the most exciting decade of my life and I get so nostalgic when I start to think about it. At thirty, I settled down and now I am no longer the centre of my own world.
    However, I can safely say that it’s a good decade and I wish you all the best for it. 🙂

  3. Happy belated birthday! You seem to have a great attidtude towards your 30s 🙂

    I hated turning 30 – I always hoped I would be a mother by then and now I’m afraid it will never happen for me (I turned 31 recently).

    • bridgekeeper

      September 17, 2014 at 1:37 pm

      Thank you 🙂 it did help that friends and family handled the 30 rather well. And I figure, excitement usually gets everyone further than panic. 30 (and 31 for that matter) is still very young 🙂

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